When someone asks me to describe myself, I get tongue-tied and can’t even string words together to form a coherent statement. Maybe because I’m battling between telling that someone what’s in my resume or the more definitive me; the former is a bit awkward, of course, since I feel like I’m having a job interview and the latter more so because — for the life of me — I am at a loss for words. The whole inner thing makes it difficult to put into words.
I can wax poetry about other people; can even list down in bullet points their strengths and weakness. But when it comes to me, I can’t figure out a way to make the description sound less obnoxious and awkward. If I list down a lot of the positives, that makes me conceited. If I give out weaknesses, the alpha in me would raise its dominant head and shriek like a banshee in protest, and I would end up like a blubbering idiot in the process.
Describe Who You Are
I’ve gone through numerous unprofessional psychoanalysis from “friends” who think they can string up enough words to properly justify who I am. But in the end, they give up and just say that I’m “unique”, making it sound like it’s a bloody curse to be different from the present norm.
Trying to write down every thought and emotion in a journal so when there’s time to retrospect and unearth the infernal journal, I’ll be able to come up with something so I won’t be a blubbering idiot anymore when someone dares to demand, “Describe yourself to me, Rose.” In the end, I’d have to give up because it’s like trying to suffer through the embarrassment of trying to understand myself . . . me . . . the frickin’ author of the blasted journal. So — hands down — I just let it be and tell the most mundane description of myself, sounding a bit mysterious and never giving out something very personal that might eventually make a huge crater out of a pinhole.
So, what does that say about the saying, “the only person who can describe you is yourself?”
Well . . . if I can’t even do that, then nobody can — a sad but completely true predicament that maybe in time I will resolve.
I’m many things to different people, making it hard to have just one description to give. It takes a lot of self-awareness and self-confidence to come up with just one solid description of yourself — something that is still an ongoing process — in my case — to get there.