When you see someone — perhaps a stranger — strutting like he owned the world, have you ever thought that he has issues with self-esteem or if he was born to rule the world with his [too] generous smiles and soft voice?
I’ve been going through some tough sh*t lately (talk about an understatement) and ushered back all the demons of my past, hounding me and pushing me to my breaking point … a point that could have ended my life but I was too chicken to push through.
I have lost sight of who I am, what I am and what I truly want in my life. I’m on self-destruct and soon, all aspects of my life tasted the bitter effects of it. Tumbling down the wrong rabbit hole left me bruised and aching inside. I felt abandoned and so alone.
I hit my lowest point to date.
It’s uncontrollable and I hate it. I may not be a control freak, but having control of at least 60% of my life is a welcome respite compared to the chaos my emotional demons has caused.Continue reading A Time To Appreciate→
Do you ever have a story that no one believed but is completely true? A story that you try so hard to convince people believe, but they’ll look at you in a funny way, shake their heads and exclaim, “No way!” or “You’re joking!“?
Well, I have one such story and it goes like this . . .
Once when I was young, I tried so hard to be inconspicuous — both at home and at school because I was afraid to be put on the spotlight. I barely said a word in school unless I have no choice because it’s a graded recitation or the question was directly addressed to me. Nevertheless, teachers pushed me towards various extra-curricular activities like being part of Glee Club, Girl Scout, Lyre and Drum Band, acting on-stage during school fairs and other embarrassing *activities. Continue reading The Confidence Project→
These questions are what most people who are self-aware ask themselves whenever they look at their reflections. I am no stranger to it. For someone who seemed so self-possessed and confident when in other people’s company, I’ve been beset with self-doubt and the annoying inner critic blues from time to time. As I gradually mature, I learned that you create the reflection you wanted to see. The mirror is just there to show you what you want to see – whether it’s the truth or a lie. Therefore, it’s better to look inside rather than the superficial image of someone you sometimes do not recognize anymore.